Trapped

September 13, 2008 § 11 Comments

From photoshopped

With no where to go,
with nothing being slow,
in a sulphourous world,caught in the flow.
faster and faster things move,
and closer and closer they come,
to you and you are left with nothing else-
except,that you had felt.
Nothing seems real,
nothing can tell,
but from did i fall,
for whom is this call?
The world seems at peace,
yet i am not in ease.
Everything seems too clouded,
the night seems too wicked.
With nothing to think about,
with nothing to talk with aloud,
a sense of insecurity-
the past world’s name,
the time i was left in shame,
the time i thought i lost the game.
Some sounds seem gone,
nothing seems right,it is all wrong,
with some old wind,everything
i every knew and felt was made into a song.
With verses,being preached,
With no clarity,only a screech,
I am left with nothing else,
i hope someone will teach.

Yet within that nothing,
I can see the shadow of something.
The closer i move,
i can see,that it was you.
I know you are the few,
i know that it was you,
that i wanted to.
It was in your name,
it was for you,it wasn’t in vain.
Someday,i knew you,
now there is no pain.
For what reason,we the two,
were left among the rest,
why did we lose the sense of the best.
Somewhere,you and me,
there is the bond and us,the three,
everywhere in this world,
beyond the night’s scream,
at the dawns peak,
i at last come to you,seek,
i do no more,
now everything is on the shore,
there in no more need to go,
for life is the waves,
and life is in the rays,
nothing matters
and no more trapped,
through the gap,
the unknown crack,
the secrets are told,
now i am bold,
the traps back away,
from now on,it is day,
there is nothing to be afraid.

Tagged!-Why i hate humans

June 29, 2008 § 11 Comments

I am jumping,jumping and bouncing and blabbering,yes i caught my blog as it got its 10000th hit ๐Ÿ™‚ Yup it isn’t 10008 yet,but then 9 & 7 are my lucky numbers ๐Ÿ™‚ So 10008 add then you get 9 subtract them and you get 7 ๐Ÿ™‚ This is really amazing,mainly because my original blog still hasn’t reached 8000 after 2 years and this has got 10000 ๐Ÿ˜€

And so Another tag ๐Ÿ™‚ This one is about people i hate and comes from Arvind! It is pretty funny,for right now i love everyone ๐Ÿ™‚ The 10008 has got me so happy,that even a human hater like me is in love with humanity ๐Ÿ™‚ But anyway i am going to tell my super fast mind to chill a bit,it does need to keep awake till 2( Spain VS Germany! tonight) and get to think of why i hate my own race ๐Ÿ™‚

>i don’t know if it is because of too many movies/cartoons/books with the idea of having people hate their own race,but I hate humans because they are humans,they seem to think they know everything.these beings who call them selves as adults,try to spoil young minds by controlling them.While all the movie heroes might hate the word “sorry”,i hate the word MISBEHAVE.I hate it i tell you,for that is what you get for just letting your mind out ๐Ÿ™‚ ( was about to say hair down,but then according to my mom, I misbehave if I grow my hair ๐Ÿ˜ฆ so i wear my hair really short).why so many creatures will be jea of humans for their ‘intelligence’ ,these stupid creatures always believe in making “kids”(the far intelligent yet innocent and free ) the same as they were.The only rope we kids have is the gen. gap.

>Ok,so i covered most of humanity in my first point.So the second point should be more pointing.so the next kind,is ” I am so emotional and get depressed ,i just go wild or just sit and cry”.Ok so that makes me hate myself.I hate the part of me,which is always ready to feel sad and dejected.But i love it too,for that is me ,it is the outer cover for the still innocent child in me ๐Ÿ™‚

> now i am seriously running out of people! I covered the world,i covered me,now where for the third step? Anyone willing to lend your head and ruling the under world? Well got it.It is those who don’t appreciate other religions and most of all their own.” It is what our religion says that is what i follow”,I believe blind faith comes only when you don’t appreciate anything and those who appreciate will just follow what they want and not impose things on others and not hate other religions.Anyway blind faithย  is owed to a lot of people in the 1st point.No religion ever preaches that you hate every other religion.religion has become the tool for people to being used.(those who use it come later ) but it is the people’s willingness to be used,which causes them to be used.I remember stories in my tamil class,where my teacher with pride would tell us that the erstwhile kings of our country would rather die,than live under someone or thing ,they don’t believe in.And for that you don’t go destroy what is not yours and that which is not yours is everything.For the body too is a cage and the cage has a right to be broken.( i am not promoting suicide,but i am not against it)

> Those who use others.And i too am guilty of this.But i try to avoid it,i usually do it to people who try to use me,so it is a kind of symbiosis.No one has a right to crush another.yet we have the people who treat humans as if they were born for slavery.while those who are crushed come from a family which wasn’t bale to withhold, even if you are under someone you should be your own master.But our system is such that one leads and everyone follows and that is the safest too.So A leader is one who understands all his comrades and will be able to sort the problems among them.And yet for leaders we have avarice,lusty cynical brutes for whom “me and I” are the paradise .I am not telling you to be more charitable and empathize ,you have right to love and be yourself,but remember that a workers hand is also a hand and that his eyes are also eyes.His duty is to do that,for he is not you,so appreciate his work and he will not covet for your work.

> Now i have seriously gone into a frenzy,so the last of humanity i hate.While i have covered more than a fifth,this would make it more than whole.I hate humanity for not understanding itself.Why so as we call ’em our mortal mother and father Adam and Eve or whatever they maybe,never thought about why we were here? Were they lost in a thought so profound,that the fruit they eat was in thought and not in real?Why have they given us a world which we would never be able to appreciate with our tiny eyes and why did they give us this world which we will never understand?

For humanity is meant to suffer,

for life was never meant to be,

but a mistake created by its own

mistake,which we all now justify?

Fir happiness is a state of life and

so ecstasy is not infinity

but the state of supreme individuality.

For sorrow,

will last only till morrow,

and it needn’t be borrowed,

it will be crushed

by our own virtue of being humans?

Now i need to pass this on.I am not sure of how many of you hate humans or at least a few kinds of them.i think i will give it toAyushi,Nikhil and well anyone who wants to do it( i admit i have been passing too many and a lot of you haven’t done the ones which i have passed on ) So am not going to bug you all.

tagged!

June 22, 2008 § 14 Comments

Aaarti has tagged me ๐Ÿ™‚ This time it is to reveal ten things people here do not know about me ๐Ÿ™‚

So here goes:-

1) I am 16(to be 17 in 25 days) going on 6 & 60 ๐Ÿ™‚

2) either i am very pensive or very happy ๐Ÿ™‚

3) If i don’t like something,i don’t do it ๐Ÿ™‚ If i am forced to,i will sulk about it,but then i might start liking it ๐Ÿ™‚

4) I like to dream and imagine a lot ๐Ÿ™‚

5) Even in a crowd of a million,i can be alone and well if i feel like interacting,i a room of 100 i might knowย  everyone ๐Ÿ™‚

6) It is very tough to catch me,when i haven’t done something,which i am supposed to do ๐Ÿ™‚

7) I am lazy alright,but once i ‘wake up’ i like to do things really fast and am known to finish (work which others take hours to complete) in a few minutes(this excludes maths).

8) I like rain,storms and hill stations and hate heat and summer.

9) I love to travel and see new places.

10) what is the 10th thing about me ,which you all donno ? well a lot,but to keep it short, I am crazy and one of fav things to say is i hate humans ๐Ÿ™‚ย  (no offense meant)

So here goes the tagging:-

1) Arvind

2)Amit

3) Nita

4)Nikhil

5)Jeevan

6)SF

7)Raj

tagged!!!!

June 17, 2008 § 8 Comments

yaYayyayaAYayayA! i am tagged again ๐Ÿ™‚ Been such a long time,since i did one ๐Ÿ™‚ So Nita has passed it on this ๐Ÿ™‚ and here goes ๐Ÿ™‚

Please thoughtfully consider the following, and choose one item for each of the categories below. (Be sure to describe your reasons for choosing)

* One religious work from a non-familiar tradition youโ€™ll read:
hmmm….i will read maybe bible…
* One music video-that you like-from your โ€œleast likely to listen toโ€™ genre:
too tough,really too tough,i am just music mad…i like tamil movie music(well the bangy bangy senseless,hypocritic stuff…) and one among the ocean,well i don’t say i love it,but it is kinda funny..the song i mean…

* A book from a genre you almost never read, that you have read, or you will read (promise!):
ha,hmm…at present i am reading gibran…maybe sci-fi…but i cannot promise..i hate sci-fi books..
* Somewhere youโ€™d never thought to go on holiday/vacation, and why it might be fun to go there?
Antarctica-loneliness and penguin sliding ๐Ÿ˜€
* A specific food youโ€™ve never tried, but will because of this meme, honest!:
hmm…er..is there anything veg i haven’t eaten? sorry,let me find out that something first ๐Ÿ˜€
* A sport or game you really hate, or havenโ€™t tried yet, but are willing to give one more go:
a sport i haven’t tried a zillion…a sport that

i hate,cricket!!!!!!!

hmm…it might be worth a re-try still….
* A style of dance you probably wonโ€™t try (we wonโ€™t make you promise on this one):
too tough…for i don’t dance lol ๐Ÿ™‚ maybe bee dance?
* A career job you donโ€™t feel youโ€™re suited for, and why:
i doubt if i am suit for anything….but anyway ninja( too much of naruto watching i guess) because i don’t know how to fight ๐Ÿ™‚
* An item thatโ€™s โ€œthinking out of the boxโ€™ for this meme that hadnโ€™t been included:
a question: what will you do if we send you to the place you wanted and tell you to play? thats dumb maybe…hmm….the person whom hate the most?
* If thereโ€™s one thing in life you wanted to do, and will do because of this meme, what will it be?
go to Antarctica ๐Ÿ™‚ well first try to spell it properly without the help of firefox ๐Ÿ™‚

oh! ya and i pass it to priya, Ananya, Jane,Jeevan , SF,and Meghana well no one else ๐Ÿ™‚ If you want to do it, just do it ๐Ÿ™‚

Anyway just found this video

MY LIFE,POEMS AND LIVING

June 15, 2008 § 13 Comments

I am feeling extremely stupid right now.If you are wondering why,it is because i don’t why i feel stupid.No i know it doesn’t make sense,but what am i doing anyway? Living ,might be an answer.But what is the big deal about living? i am Living,alright,so why should i bother about it? What is life anyway?This is what wiki says
“Life is a condition that distinguishes organisms from non-living objects, such as non-life, and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism and reproduction”. Wow,so basically i too am a machine,programmed by something else.No i cannot accept this.Why should be what someone else wants me to be?I am an plagiarist then,writing what someone else has already done,including this.

I am still awe of the world.I just cannot stop being overwhelmed by how huge it is.I want to go out of earth and see it,Pictures aren’t enough.I want to see it with my own eyes.It is not that i don’t believe that earth exists and that it is as the pictures show it,but i want to see it for real.Having lived all my life inside something,i want to go higher.Yet can i ever become bigger than life? i hate being a hypocrite,so i will tell the truth,i still don’t know much about the world.Yes,i write a lot about the world,but i do not know from where it all comes.I feel very uncomfortable calling myself a poet,for i am a tool,yes a mere tool of something that has created me.I badly want to know the real me.What am i really like? What is it that makes a lot of people not like me?

Is it that a tool,is a mere tool and that a few see the beauty and a few the use of it? What is beauty anyway? Starting every sentence with capitals,drawing the eye at the last? Starting from a lower pitch? Who can define beauty? Wiki says ” Beauty is a characteristic of a person, place, object or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure, meaning or satisfaction. Beauty is studied as part of aesthetics, sociology, social psychology and culture. As a cultural creation, beauty has been extremely commercialized.”

There are times i hate what i write.Yet if i hadn’t started writing,i doubt if i will be living.Writing has meant more for me.It doesn’t matter,that when i write i am not in control of myself,nothing matters to me,especially when i am writing something long.It is when i write that i feel a perennial peace within me.It is when i write,that i feel some purpose for my living.It is when i write,that
the world i live in seems real.Otherwise nothing seems real to me.I still feel like a five year old about my world.I am more matured in accepting a few things and not reacting to insults.

Blogging means a lot to me.As i said before,if not for writing i don’t know what i will be.And i have been to share my feelings ,here openly.I have met a lot of great people.I have met people,who have given me the courage to do things my way.though i still find it difficult to come in terms with life and humans as such,i am able to appreciate,people for what they are.

I have written about 175 poems till now.Each one is different and same in a lot of ways.i do not know,how good a writer i am.I cannot judge,something which comes to the world through me,i have to accept it ,for whatever it is.But i think i am not that good a writer,for i have tried to get my poems published,but all my applications have been turned down.But that doesn’t matter,for if not today,someday.Might be after i die,it might get recogonised.

I should thank the whole world,for its contribution,in helping me realize,what is inside me.i still remember,sitting in class,feeling depressed,in a corner.And then suddenly it came to me,from where i do not know.I wrote my first major poem- MOTHER INDIA.After that came THE SEA.These poems,till today are my favorite.They were my eye opener,in lot of ways.They took away the feeling of uselessness from me.i no more felt like i was useless.They gave me a confidence.And till today that is what keeps me going.

I thank you all,you are all the forces which still teach me.You all are the people who help me keep going.I thank all of you.

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