confused? crazy? :|

Well I  seem to be getting confused about a lot of things of late. One moment of inspiration seems to have caused new twists and turns inside my head and am trying to sort them out.

There is nothing fun about this. Usually when I get confused, I look for sense, by defining myself in new “ways”(and discover something new about myself). But some how this time, I seem to be looking for a discovery, which means, for sure, that I am over looking something(discoveries are always accidental, I guess).

I wrote about four drafts, but felt they weren’t worth publishing(still trying to figure out why), but at least they are there, saved as drafts, four among scores. I guess sometimes it is better to be candid, but then when you are confused about what you want to be candid about, then you are seriously confused(like this sentence?).

And all this confusion is driving me crazy. Messaging random people on friends’ mobile(using their mobiles 😛 ), inventing new words(and found out that people are stupid enough to buy it :P), well at least a word- folligo(what does it mean?), arguing about anything and everything, telling everyone I need a girl friend/ I am in love with someone(go figure :P), hating everything and then thinking about it and deciding I don’t hate it after all etc.

Well I can tell you all one thing- be careful of this bug. It will make you feel horrendously low at one moment and the next  moment, you will be on top of the world. It’s fun for a while, but this too irritating(more for my friends than me I guess 😛 ). Well I am thankful that people around me can handle this madness, they surely deserve an ode(did I tell you, I had the sudden whim, to write a new play and claim it is a rare work of Shakespeare? ).

But odes can wait, till my sanity is analysed by my saner side and it decides to confront this new bug with hard-hitting questions and definitive answers(my saner side is still on a holiday, I guess). But one thing is for sure, I am not an odd one out, many seem to be affected by it, maybe they can control the bug and let it have its say whenever they see it fit, but since usually the mean(the mathematical thing) escapes me and the extremes haunt me, I need to decide about this bug, i.e. if I should keep it or kill it .

And when have you seen me write posts like this? This sums it up, I guess. Or maybe it is just the effect of reading Rushdie. Ha well. Anyway, before you run away, thanks to the bug, since I am too lazy to choose photos(783 in all, so 😛 ) , here is how I welcomed new year 😛

Just bare with the inital parts, the end is good, I guess 😛

P.S:- WP spell check, has underlined “four” and suggests “for” is what I must have been thinking about, er…did I miss spell 4? “|

P.P.S:- And I thought it was only me-until I understood what those colourful updates on fb were 😐 Madness.

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