no more than a few thought on the same line
August 7, 2007 § Leave a Comment
i don’t have the strength to take on even one task-no not that i am not physically up to it,rather my complexes and my insecurities take hold of me too much.I can feel depression creep in to me,every time i hear people comment.Yes,i am sportive ,but no i am not a dead piece of rag.Sometimes i do wonder ,what is the value of existing as a human.What do i gain from these so called “higher” beings? Nothing more than earfuls of barking and insults in that strange mocking tone of theirs.All turn out to be the same.It is very rare,well since i said all are the same it is wrong,but still very very rare,that you come across a very affectionate and loving and lovable person.Alright i agree,i do talk a lot, i talk much more than a person of my age is allowed,but still?
Well i have been a part of this sea,of humanity,no rather now it is a ocean-just look around me,the same old senseless living.Well i don’t know how same they are,but they act the same,they are too gullible if you ask me.No proper thinking.Some times i wonder,why should i be caught up in this wave,why not something bigger? Well hopefully next time,for you see it is short, i know i shall be at the peak,then i shall crash out,but if this a storm i know i will be carried to future distances ,further away from those i began with.Well i don’t control the tides,but the wind does.And humans are controlled by something which seems absent.So i have left it to the absent.While i see the present,never can i see the absent,that seems to be absolute answer and epitome of life and humanity.
